So it was November and Christmas was coming around once more. I decided to apply for a job for the next year … a horticultural traineeship actually, so I did so with the main park in the inner city of Perth. I ended up getting a call from them for an interview but I had to take a drug test also which I thought I would most probably completely fail due to my getting back into smoking marijuana. I could have quit but I simply couldn’t stop smoking due to the stress and high energy within my mind. It’s quite hard to explain, it was as if I was addicted to my way of thinking while on marijuana.
The weeks leading up to Christmas are quite a blur but I remember one day where I decided to clean my car in the garage and I played ‘Come Said The Boy’ by Mondorock. I had my first momentary vision of the mental plane where I was on stage singing that song to an audience and it made someone who was very special to me to shed a tear of happiness. I kept playing music day in and day out and the closer Christmas came the more intense my mind became and the crazier I began to act.
I remember thinking my friends were all watching me, as in the other archangels such as Gabriel and Uriel. So I played many songs for them. I played Owner of a Lonely Heart for Metatrons human Bloychev and Time to Pretend for Uriel/Andrew. One day my mind was quite intense, so the division between reality and the mental plane was quite unclear and I thought that my “astral sister” AKA “Rachel” was going to come over to visit me. When Daniels, my partners, sister came over I thought that Rachel had taken her over or was influencing her behavior. She was quite manic as she too suffers from mental illness. She wanted to play dress ups with me and go to the shopping centre in costumes. So we did. She put a sheet on to be a ghost and I used a table cloth with christmas colors as a cape to be a super hero. We went to the shop and bought alcohol. It was quite funny as I pretended to fly and she was booing people like a ghost.
That day when we got home Daniel had arrived home from his works Christmas party. He had passed out on the bed intoxicated and for some reason I got the inclination to mummify him by wrapping him up in toilet paper. I cut his shirt off. I think I did this because I thought he was going to die and I was trying to safe his life. I cut his shirt off but decided against the mummification.
I ended up getting a hair cut and got my hair cut quite short a few weeks before this all started. While completely and utterly insane I had this feeling i had to pretend to be gay (apparently ‘Rachel’ did that to all of us) so I wore some ‘gay looking’ clothes and put an earring in one ear.
One day I sat and watched some television. I was watching Breaking Bad and found a song called Bonfire by Knife Party on it. I downloaded the song and began playing it. It made me “go off”. I associated it with the fire of the sexual energy and made up a dance that symbolically represented the sexual alchemical process. Whilst dancing around like a maniac I had a vision of Raphael using a seed cleaning machine to separate wheat from chaff in front of the Gnostics (My spiritual group). I also kept playing Eminem’s Fack which is a satirical song about sex or as i put it “fucking”. This was me trying to educate people on sex and alchemical transformation. I decided to call this Christmas “Sexmas”.
About 12 days before Christmas I posted on twitter a video about the twelve days of Christmas and decided that this Christmas was a green one and that I was going to “celebrate” with Jim.B and his being. I wanted him to take the show away in a way so his being did something to me where he plucked my eye out on the mental plane and made me like the god Odin. It’s all quite hard to explain really, but it was some sort of initiation I thought. Christmas was great overall as I had a lot of fun with myself and my audience.
After december things settled down a bit. I remember being quite stressed during January. This was the first time I started to have visions of my friends. I discovered some new music at Christmas including Alt-J and the single Acceptable in the 80’s and kept playing them into January. I felt quite angry at this time of the year, frustrated, kinda like I was coming down off a high and for the first time I began to get sick, my body was aching and weak. These were attacks from the Black Lodge.
I had gotten a job working as a Horticultural Trainee at the most prestigious park in the city. I was excited as I loved gardening and working outdoors. I had information that the Black Lodge were completely against this plan as they were scared of my horticultural aspects of Raphael and Rafeakeal, or my being and my dark consciousness. I started the job but I had to quit smoking marijuana in order to keep the job, something I simply couldn’t manage to do as I was that stressed because the “weight” on my mind. At work I had fun though,. I kept thinking certain people there were leaving me “clues” and giving me encoded messages. Eventually I picked up that they were trying to get me to join the Black lodge something I was adamantly against but I kept considering it in the back of my mind as the pressure was quite intense from the Black Lodge as they were making me very sick and quite tired everyday I was there.
Eventually after about six weeks I lost my job and was forced to resign. I was very disappointed in myself and was kicking myself for the opportunity lost. As my time there went on I would wake up in the morning a start to, what I called “downloading my dreams” from the night before. These dreams were on the mental plane and were mainly about Angela one of my teachers who I had become very close to. Apparently millions of people were also dreaming of the two of us together and of what we were doing on the mental plane. This was a very enjoyable time for me as it was exciting since I had never had such insight into the going ons of the mental plane before then. I had met “Rachel” or rather Susanna and Andrew Van Wyngarden for what was for me the first or second time in my own personal garden which has a small house at the top of a hill with an amphitheater out the back surrounded my mountainous forests on the mental plane.
A few days after I had resigned form that job I began to experience another period of intensity of thought were my mind was very active. I started to play new age ambient music such as Vangelis, jean Michel Jarre and Kitaro. I had hours of this music and all day for about three days I played this music non-stop, it was like living in a dream world and was extremely enjoyable and quite spiritual in nature. I spent my days in bed smoking marijuanna and listening to this amazing music all the while people could hear me on the mental plane. As I listened, I downloaded my dreams from the night before, had access to what was going on on the mental plane and for the first time I saw and heard someone who was on the mental plane watching me. It was my teacher Belsebuub, his wife Angela and another student of theirs. To the best of my recollection I remember him asking me if I could hear him. I replied out loud that I could and I could also see him. I said “Yes, I can see you”. This was the very beginning of one of the craziest and most difficult times for me as my mind had to adjust to hearing voices and seeing things that were physically close to me.
The next day after playing all the ambient new age music I had. I downloaded some experiences where I was with my friends and I was organizing for us to “take over the world”. I came up with an idea to hack the nuclear weapon detonators of the world and blackmail the Black Lodge with the threat of nuclear inhalation. The first day we took over some of them on the mental plane. I still not sure if we had taken over their computers on the physical, this will remain a mystery to me. I don’t know what exactly our demands were because I was extremely active and my ind was racing at a thousand miles per hour. It was like I was an actual computer where I was the central server of this game we were playing. All the while I was playing my music. I decided this game we were playing was called “God is God” as I repeatedly played the song by Juno Reactor “God is God” as a theme to all that was happening on the mental plane. Just before this time I met “Crystal” or rathe Endushka on the mental plane for the first time. We got along quite well almost straight away.
The second day I downloaded my dreams and found that I had met up with many of my friends. We were all around a table which was the map of the Earth and I believe Mark or Orifiel suggested that we grid lock the world with nuclear weapons to Black Mail them for whatever we wanted. We decided we wanted money as a ransom to stop playing this game. That day I decided that I would play the song ‘Bonfire’ and this would be the signal to grid lock the world. So we did it. The whole time I was laughing at the funniness of the situation. It’s hard to explain as my ind was working at such a fast rate at the time as to why I was laughing.
Once we had the world on grid lock we decided to demand crowns, septors, gold and scared artifacts. Andrew took the lead on this. On twitter I said ‘fuck this royals song’ as it states that we would never be royal. i decided that day that we should become royals and over throw the royal families. It was a great idea in my mind. That same day, as best as I can recall, we pointed all the nuclear weapons at the vatican and I demanded that the Catholic Church release a statement about the truth of Mary Magdalene and her role in Jesus’ life. I also demanded that I receive all the Gnostic texts from the Vatican library and that Michael receive the Ark of the Covenant for his research into nuclear power. While this was going on Michael also known as the Archangel Michael was disproving the current theory on nuclear radiation as part of an attack on the scientific establishment. He managed to completely disprove the theory on the mental plane and on scientific forums on the physical.
This game went on for four days. On the third day I found myself with more friends who i figured I was getting crystals for eventually. We were siting in a temple building in rectangular shape on the floor discussing what to do next. I dressed everyone in crowns and gave myself the crown of power. Orifiel/Mark really wanted me to know that he just wanted to beet me and I was up for the challenge.
Eventually I ran out of gas and became very tired. My mind started to wind down again. It was unfortunate as they were very close to giving into me a transferring money into my account to get me to stop. Unfortunately, I simply couldn’t keep going and it all came to a close.
To be continued …