I have so many attachments that need to be devastated and destroyed for the rest of my life.
Some of these include:
Attachment to the sense of security provided by being a part of an already well established spiritual community brings
Attachment to the spiritual traditions and concepts that I created a new identity from
Attachment to customs or the way things are supposed to be done and have been done by others. This is also closely related to the desire for gratification and approval from my perceived peers
Attachment to getting what I want which is a sense of retribution and a feeling of satisfaction in knowing that I am right and “they” are wrong
Attachment to the results of my actions
Attachment to being victimized. This relates to my sense of identity and my difficulty in being independent and not caring about what others think.
Attachment to other people whom I have a deep desire to help spiritually out of love for them.
Attachment to family and people who mimic familial relationships e.g. surrogate father
I also have many fears and desires that I need to let go of. Some of these include:
Letting go of the fear of loneliness.
Letting go of the fear of embracing my free will and gaining liberty. This relates closely to the fear of being alone and the desire for other peoples approval.
Letting go of the desire to be accepted as one is. This also relates closely to the fear of being alone as well as an individuals sense of identity which is often derived from how other people define them.
Letting go of the desire to be respected by every person and accepting that many people are not capable of understanding me.
Letting go of the fear of being wrong and and seeking a sense of comfort and security in someone elses ideas of what’s right and what’s wrong.
Letting go of the desire for things to be within my control, or my perception of what it means to be in control and the satisfaction in feeling a sense of power over ones circumstances.
Letting go of the desire to gain true friends in life along with the ideas of what it means to have true friends
Letting go of the desire to be desired
Letting go of the desire to be in the presence of love and receive genuine kindness from others who say they honestly care about you
Letting go of the desire to be respected as an equal irregardless of my perceived achievements and failures (perceived both by myself and by others)