In today’s world opinions exist everywhere as I’m sure they always have. From religious opinions to political opinions to philosophical view points and because of this we find there is a never ending battle of opinion ranging from small scale disagreements within families or between friends to large scale disagreements between major religions and countries. For me, as an esotericist who seeks truth through personal experience I ask: “Where and how do people form their opinions? What is it that makes one believe one thing as truth and what makes another form an opposing opinion?” For me personally it is all about personal experience. This can be said to be the experience of ones physical world but in my view the experience of ones internal world is more important. The internal world within each of us contains that which is hidden from direct view. We may experience something to be good or right in the physical realm but what lies underneath is the driving force behind our experiences of life with all it’s pleasures and difficulties. In other words, just because something feels pleasurable doesn’t necessarily make it right. We all know it feels good to eat our favorite foods but that doesn’t automatically make those foods good for us. I have stated previously that I do not wish for people to just believe me or to follow what I have said and take it as truth. All I have wanted to achieve with my blog is to share my own personal experience and understanding with others so that what I have learned may help them in some way or inspire them to gain their own personal experience to answer the questions they ponder within themselves or to confirm something they believe to be true.
This is where mystical experience beyond the physical body can be the most powerful tool for someone to form their own opinions about themselves and the world around them. Truth is a subjective thing when it comes to humanity as we all look upon the world through ourselves. Objectivity comes when we can step outside of that nature, when we can detach ourselves from the confines of being an individual and peak into the realm where our consciousness has the ability to view things from a more objective stand point. This is not an easy thing to explain intellectually. As I have said before personal experience can only be felt, it cannot be explained and that is why esotericism will never have a solid set of beliefs through which it can define itself like institutionalized religions can. A Buddhist, Christian, Jew, Muslim or Hindu can say “I believe in this, that etc. etc. because it is taught by such and such prophets or written in such and such books that it is the truth” whereas a true esotericts will say “I believe what I have experienced for myself”. This does not mean that we cannot have insight into phenomena we have not experienced in the physical realm but rather it means that we can gain deeper information about these phenomena by traveling to a higher level of reality. Whether or not this reality exists is a question to be answered by each individual through their efforts to experience it for themselves. I like to think of higher realities as veils, where from one level we lift the veil to see what is hidden underneath our immediate reality and we continue to lift these veils as we awaken more of our consciousness.
On a personal level when trying to live spiritually, if I am unsure if something is suitable for me to do I will mediate upon it as through mediation we are able to access one of these higher realities to gain insight without the interference of the subconscious mind. With this type of meditative reflection one of the most powerful tools I have discovered lies in the power of asking. Asking the creative forces which underly all existence for answers to questions is the most powerful tool we have to enable us to gain knowledge. Much of the time I find there are many inner resistances to asking in a sincere manner. These resistances can be a sense of self sufficiency or personal pride, embarrassment, doubt or a lack of enthusiasm and I feel through my experience I have leant that all these things are elements within me that emanate from my subconscious mind. Imagine that within yourself there is a battle raging between the good you and the bad you – the little angel on the one shoulder and the little devil on the other. Even on the simplest level there are choices to make, choices to do good or to do bad, to give into the earthly pleasures of things such as lust and greed or to surrender these pleasures for the feeling of freedom from the dominance of our animal drives and the spiritual rewards that accompany this “animal sacrifice”.
No human being is perfect and we all make mistakes in life, including those who may seem to others to be quite advanced spiritually, many of whom have made terrible mistakes in their histories. I can definitely say that I have made many terrible mistakes in life and in my efforts to help others which were often driven by negativity, pain and attachment but this does not mean that we are doomed to repeat these mistakes as we have a choice, each and every day we have a choice. As the saying goes “Live and Learn” and this also applies to esotericism in a very profound way as being a seeker of knowledge through mystical experience you learn sooner or later of the laws governing our existences, one of which is the Law of Karma. One of my esoteric teachers Samuel Aun Weor made many mistakes in his time, he admitted these mistakes towards the end of his time and said that he was punished greatly for the errors of dis-compassion towards certain sections of humanity and his harsh judgments upon them. I have already seen in my life how this law of karma has also applied to me and my esoteric work. I have been punished for my complacency in the past, my recklessness and my selfishness all of which have come back to bite me very badly. I have seen this not only through my physical life but also through my mystical life where I have been denied certain privileges which if I had not committed these mistakes I would have been granted by now. In the end all I wish to do is help the world and humanity and I have a choice to walk away from this mission or to accept my punishments and continue on void of shame and regret for the past but with a sincere sense of remorse for the wrongs I have done and a commitment to redeem myself through my actions.
My personal experience is just that – it is personal, as it is for each and every person. What makes this experience a tool for knowing truth is by looking into what our actions bring – you reap what you sow. People often say things like “Instant Karma” when something goes wrong after someone may have done something deemed to be wrong and yet many people do not believe in the wider implications of karma and the fundamental eastern belief that karma is carried from lifetime to lifetime as a part of the process of reincarnation. To give an example of my own – each time in the past I have been challenged with difficult emotions and I have managed to overcome them I have been rewarded with a mystical experience on a higher dimension later on in the day when I’ve gone to sleep. Another is when I have overcome strong desires to obtain something material and I have made the choice to let go of this desire I have been rewarded with an incredible sense of inner freedom and peace – a deep realization that the pull to that thing was an illusion which had me trapped in a subconscious prison where I was convinced that the object of desire would bring me happiness. These experiences are what esotercism is all about.
When I am faced with difficult inner questions I ask for an answer. I ask the divine to help me, to show me something relevant, to point me in the right direction and often I am stunned at the synchronization and uncanny occurrences when I do this from a place of purity within my heart. It’s not an asking that comes from a desire for knowledge but is an asking that wishes to know how to be free, how to be at peace and what has to be done in order to achieve this. That is what I wish for others, for them to have a direct link to there own source of higher intelligence, an intimate relationship with the divine, a sense that a higher power is there for them to connect with whenever they need it and are willing to ask for this help with sincerity. We do not have to be religious to do this nor do we have to believe in God or believe in anything specific for that matter, what we need is a sincere longing to do whats right and a longing to be free of suffering and the inner obstacles stopping us from reaching peace within. Being open to what we can experience with this asking is also important along with developing intuition and following the heart even when what it tells us is seemingly illogical as when an individual moves to the more advanced stages of the Path much of what they experience will seem completely irrational to the outside world and this ability to follow the heart over the worlds expectations takes extreme courage and inner sacrifice.
How to ask for guidance, answers or help
Mediating upon a question
There are many methods of meditation which all seek to achieve different results. Many of these are very good and can bring much inner peace and a sense of tranquility but often this sense of peace is lost when we come out of meditation and we return to the same state we were in before we begun, although this may only creep up on us slowly, eventually we return to the same state unless we spend hours and hours in meditation in order to avoid returning to the physical world. It can also be very difficult to quieten the mind when we have troubles or worries swirling around in it so meditating upon a question can be a powerful practice not only to finding inner peace but also for gaining insight. Our question can be anything we wish to ask but a good reflection on what we are seeking to understand or on what we are feeling within and what exactly is it that is troubling us will help us to formulate our question. Often it can just be a feeling that we can’t shake and in those times I simply ask: “What is this feeling?”. I ask this over and over until I begin to feel, hear or see answers and insights into what is going on within. It’s very important that we let things come to us and do not formulate our own answers because we are wanting a specific answer. The way I think about it is that if I knew the way I felt about something was correct then I wouldn’t be troubled by it or by the opinions of others regarding it. This is a little bit similar to a Zen Buddhist Koan Meditation where we ask questions such as “What is the sound of one hand clapping?”. The difference is that the general aim of Koans is to silence the mind by exercising it and tiring it out as it tries to answer the question, whereas when we meditate to answer a question of our own we seek answers from within. The mind will naturally try to answer the question itself as that is it’s nature but when it tires and cannot come up with anymore answers that is when we can access this space of pure knowledge within us. You will know when you are accessing this by assessing how your heart feels as things come up in the field of your perception. When your mind is calm and still you will know what is truth and what is not. I find this meditation works best when I try to silence the mind before asking the question. I find Koans do this very well but my mind grows tired of the simpler Koans quite quickly and they lose there affect so I use the mediation upon the breath to quieten my mind before asking. This mediation is very simple – you simple focus upon your breath and the sensation of breathing. I like to focus on the sensation of air entering and leaving the tip of my nose and the sensation of my abdomen expanding and contracting but this is an individual thing – do what feels best to you. If my mind is particularly active I will try to maintain a count of how many breaths I am taking which enables me to notice how concentrated I am as losing count shows I have lost concentration. Don’t get into the habit of cheating yourself on this either – this defeats the purpose of meditation and you will be wasting your time. There’s no shame in only making it to 10 breath counts. In fact this is quite normal for an over active mind. What I do is set my meditation timer to ring in the middle of meditation and will begin asking on the bell after quietening my mind. This is actually my favorite meditation technique. It can become very productive when you get the hang of it and you will begin to look forward to it once you start to experience gaining insights into your questions. A mantra or chant that specifically helps in quietening the mind is ‘Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Svaha’ mantra. There are different renditions on Youtube that you can discover. I have personally found the simpler styles have been the most effective in quietening my mind. I no longer incorporate this mantra into my questioning mediations as I prefer to lay down since if I’m able to fall asleep during theses mediations I can travel to a higher dimension and gain even more insight into my questions but the mantra is very good for stilling the mind none the less. Even if you can only find 10 minutes in your day to do this it will go a long way to helping you gain more experience both in the physical realm and on higher dimensions.
Can you coax your mind from its wandering and keep to the original oneness? Can you let your body become supple as a newborn child’s? Can you cleanse your inner vision until you see nothing but the light? Can you love people and lead them without imposing your will? Can you deal with the most vital matters by letting events take their course? Can you step back from you own mind and thus understand all things? ~ Tao Te Ching, Lao Tzu (Stephen Mitchell translation)
Prayer can be an extremely powerful tool for gaining experience. It’s the hurdles to asking sincerely void of our own inner judgments and resistances that can stop our prayers from reaching a higher power. There is also a clear difference between praying for ones desires to be fulfilled and praying for spiritual help. Prayer doesn’t necessarily means getting down on your knees and treating it as something ceremonial although this can help to create a scared space and is an act of spiritual begging or reverence for the divine. Prayer is simply the act of conversing with the divine. I pray each night when I get into bed. Sometimes when I have been feeling particularly low and I am asking to be granted help to reach higher dimensions with consciousness so that I may see what’s going on within I have found myself lifting out of my body as though there is a force pulling me out or reaching out to me to help me out of my body. Prayer is also a very powerful way of helping other people. Often as an esotericist, I have found that my focus is put solely on myself and my own inner development and gaining personal experience and I forget that by helping others I help myself. It’s easy to say that each person is responsible for their own state and therefor we should keep all our spiritual energy for ourselves but this type of attitude is completely void of love for humanity. The key to helping others is learning to balance the acts of giving to yourself and giving to others, which is a very difficult balancing act indeed. Intuition is the most powerful tool for knowing what and how much is appropriate to give and to whom. My advice for anyone attempting to experience higher knowledge is to ask for help. Even if it be in a moment during the day when you remember that you wish to experience something profound. Just take 10 second in that moment to sincerely ask for more experience within yourself. The more you ask the more your voice will be heard and the more your efforts will be seen as sincere.
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
~ The Bible, Matthew 7:7
Seeking guidance through dreams
If you find astral projection difficult to achieve, which many people do, then you can always ask to be given help in your dreams. We may not become lucid in the night but we can still be shown signs and symbols that can help our understanding and development. I have often felt as though I have stalled in my progress and I have asked to be shown what I need to work upon to progress further, then in my dreams I have been in situations where I am acting badly and this has been given to show me what lies deep within the subconscious so that I can try and see it manifesting in my thoughts and emotions during the day and combat it from there with the help of the divine mother which is the feminine force that has the power to destroy the elements of the subconscious mind. This is what the Hindu goddess Kali represents with her necklace of decapitated heads. These are the heads of our egos that we decapitate within by asking our divine mother to destroy them when they come up within us to take us away from inner tranquility. If we are not willing to see our own ugliness then we can never change it. This is why it is taught in esotercism that Lucifer is the psychological trainer because it is through the darkness that the light is extracted, mystically speaking. Much of what you will see as you progress will be shocking. For instance someone who believes that they are living a fully celibate life may be performing all sorts of lustful acts in their dreams and worse still their consciousness may be so locked within their subconscious mind that they do not even remember their dreams when they awake. This is how the Path unfolds – as we go further and further we reveal more and more of our subconscious and as we move more toward revealing the core of the subconscious or the root egos, the more primal these elements are.
Your asking will be answered if you persist and you are sincere – this I can promise you. Finally, I wish all people attempting to gain personal mystical experience strength and vigilance in their efforts. Whether you be a parent, a politician, a scientist, a sportsman, an office worker, a manager, a teacher, a health professional, a businessman, an engineer, a tradesmen, a student, or an unemployed dude, whoever you are – Seek your own experience by asking for help to know the truth for yourself. Ask for guidance when you are faced with difficult circumstances or situations. We are all sparks of the greater creative force and we all have the potential to access the knowledge we need to fulfill our purpose. Usually what happens when someone attempts this esoteric work is outer darkness will oppose them along with their own inner darkness. In the end darkness uses our fears against us and it attempts to deceive us into believing things we have yet to confirm for ourselves. It’s a comfortable place to feel you know the truth of something you haven’t gained knowledge about through mystical experience and it can be a daunting place to be in when you open yourself up to receiving information from above but once this initial resistance is overcome you will literally open up a whole new world that will change your life for ever.
All the best to your spiritual journey to higher knowledge and inner wealth.